Two days in one mind

14/04/09
Time seems to go faster now, and I do not know what to do, I know I will miss you, I feel selfless but still I hope after you leave I see you again. Im completely in love yet I am sad, I miss you and I feel miserable while I am with you, not because I am with you but because I am fearing losing you. I wish time would stop so I could be with you forever. This is my word to destiny, please do what you will for me, because now I feel completely lost, whatever happens I am confident you are right. Please make this sadness stop because I wish I could enjoy you before you go instead of just feel how I slowly lose you. This is why I feared falling for you. I love you...

14/04/09
Just took a big hit, pain stopped. Coin told me to toss it and she said yes. I dont know if im still in pain or not, Im just numb, I know ill miss you, I do, but the coin will choose right then, maybe hits will take the pain away. Screw that, I love this feel, happiness, true and clear, or not...Haha, doubt pushes, maybe im leaving (is softly speak), ha but you can come back, I know (soft speak again). Well this sure broke my head from you, I love you... I do, but crying Im sure, I wont, life sucks without a HIT, for sure. Then ill read, how happy I can feel, logic leave, smartness hello... FUCK!!!